I n t r o d u c t i o n.

From Igor Kalinauskas book "Games of I"
Translation by I. Shpigelman and B. Macdonald, 2006

It will not taste any sweeter however many times one repeats "Halva, halva." This book is for those who wants to try and feel the taste of one's own Self. You are going into the quest for the answers on the simple and eternal questions. What is this world where the main goal and ultimate desire is to meet oneself. How it it arranged? By which laws does it operate?

In this book, you are not offered the answers, moreover, you might have even more questions when you read it, but, if you like the way of reflection and pursuit, if you are ready to think, this book is for you.

Once, I was asked, "What is the difference between I and You?" It was a stunning question. On one hand, it was quite naive, with a plain and simple answer, "You are Other and I am Self". But, should one think about it, this question might entail quite interesting inner developments.

At large, this book has been born out of such developments.

It may so happen, that you will read this book because you are searching for something unknown, something that will help you to make peace with yourself, not even with your surroundings, but with your own self. May be you will read it because you are on a quest for something that will help you to become friends with yourself, to start loving yourself. And the more you love yourself, and the more you like yourself, the easier it will become to live with others, the more tolerant and loyal you will become.

On the first sight, this book may seem an interesting and quite surprising, yet theoretical musing on the path of a person toward oneself, on the realization of oneself as existing and acting in this world. However, the main purpose of this book is that it act as a concise practical guide to action, the action in your inner life.

This book might become a practical guide for working with your inner life: through discovery and acquaintance with it and with oneself, with oneself as existence, as pure subject, as Self. Because the content of this book is not only the result and the consequence of intent and deliberate reflections and experiences, it is not so much the result of thinking or understanding, as it is the result of lifelong activity, based on the views of the world and of the human, which guided me throughout my life.

If you are tormented by the question: why one ever needs Self, and what to do if it is manifested, if the desire to exist haunts you and does not disappear, then this book is for you. In order to be born into a pure subject, one must possess a large volume of knowledge about this matter. Also required is a tremendous determination and meticulous inner work that is performed not because someone constantly reminds you from outside, but because something has crystallized inside of you, something that might be called a magnetic pole, something that pulls you in, no matter how terrified you are, no matter how fearfully and obscure it may seem inside.