W a n t  a n d  L o v e

Touching the other you are touching yourself.
Two acts of self-knowledge in a single touch...

To get out of the carnal self is not easier than to get out of the common sense.

The thinking man can rather sacrifice his self-image then acknowledge that his body is not under his command, that it cannot be controlled. It is a disguised vital basement of power.

But not by sex alone. Of course.

Then where is this key to the love that comes only when power does not matter anymore?!

If you realize that all the tension and the contest, the aim for achievements, the whole nine yards of the man's activity is indeed the action of an inherent program by the name of "meeting the expectations", it will become clear that everything that is looked for by every man is love without expectations, is the encounter with the woman that will love, but not expect, nor will she make up any designs into which the man must fit.

And when you see this, the Heart of the Spiritual Warrior will open up. The heart that does not have a gender...

Even when a woman says "I want you", it is already a source of tension for the man. He is preparing to meet the expectations, and he is afraid of failing them.

"Nothing moves the man away from God farther than his desire of unity with God", warned us Abdul Hasan Ash-Khazili.

"I want you" is targeted against "I". It is the expression of pain and of shame of separateness. And it only appears to be targeted the other way. Like a flap of a fan, "love-hate"...

And this is the ultimate source of the war games, the contest, the jealousy... all the man's programs. And, as an ultimate limit of sensuality, the raging lust, as a sparkle of violent "want", ignited to the point of mad self-destruction comes to play.

But the question is not whether it is good or bad...

The man's question is whose expectation he is trying to meet and whether he really wants that. Because without some kind of activity a man cannot exist anyway.

The man's passion for existence obeys the action, and this is a reciprocal act.

The woman may get rid of projecting her expectation toward the man only by recognizing and by loving the man as he is. Because any expectations represent the power over the other's life, life on loan, bills and invoices. "Waiting for Godot..."

But, as it is known, the way of love passes through the realms of death.

A woman cannot find happiness in love unless she recognizes God in her man.
A man cannot find happiness in love unless he recognizes Goddess in his woman.

Otherwise the Man will not be capable of spiritualizing the body of the Woman, and the Woman will not be capable of spiritualizing the personality of the Man.

And, therefore, "I love you more than I want you". Because when I love more than I want, then my dream of opening up the gift that was given to the other by Providence is not the projection of my expectations, but the act of participation in opening him up for himself, and her for herself.

By opening up the other you are opening up yourself. The dream of the Master.

The love to a human as to a subject of creation cannot be achieved as an experience, and cannot be comprehended as a meaning, unless you accept yourself as a subject of creation. And so, any selfless love stems from the Divine Indifference.

Neither men nor women are capable of achieving love in their ultimate "wants". The men call by this name their attempts to overcome the fear of the feminine. The women call by this name their urge toward the control over the masculine. The men cripple women's lives with their fears, the women struggle for the control over men's lives and thus deprive their own lives of any self-sustained meaning. And neither one could reach the other, because they cannot tell apart a human from a human life... But love is a form of service...

In other words, there is no love in our world of men and women, since "any form" is empty...

AT + Eva + INK, Vilnius - St. Petersburg, May 9, 2001
From the "Let us Compare our Illusions" Dialogs [Part 1] [Part 2] [Part 3]
Published in the "Subject and Reality" magazine, #3, 2001.
Translation by I. Shpigelman, 2006